Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Lightworker

Last week someone called me a lightworker. I hadn't heard that term in a long time. I did a little research when I had time. I am not sure I buy into some of the rhetoric, but if knowing 1. that you have a mission or purpose 2. knowing what your purpose or mission is 3. are driven to act on it 4.It helps mankind and humanity 5.It leaves your corner of the planet a little better off 6. You seem to be at peace with or connected to the afterlife/angelic/God side of things, then I guess I probably am a lightworker. It actually makes sense. I will still live my life exactly as it has been, mundane drudgery, busy, busy and the stresses all people endure, and I love every minute of it, but I did come to realize through that conversation that I need to nurture my spirituality more. Iget so busy taking care of everybody I forget to nurture me. So that is one of my Lenten sacrifices.
Have a great day everyone.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Trust

Long time no talk. It has been a very active, busy time for the Kalinowski Clan and company. Everyone is doing really well. The empty nest isn't very empty and Matt and I are learning to deal with all our new "family" members and simultaneously enjoy our lives as a couple who are finding each other once again. Most of the time it is busy and noisy at our house as usual and then we get nice breaks like this weekend where we had the house entirely to ourselves. It is a neat thing. Going from "parents" to patriarch and matriarch takes a little getting used to and it hasn't always been an easy adjustment, but now that we are all getting the hang of things, I am really enjoying this part of my life. Matt still misses the way things used to be, but is embracing and adjusting to the way things now are pretty well also.
This post is about trust. First of all, trust is something that must be earned. Second of all, even those who you trust dearly can surprise you and do something you would never expect. So for me I trust cautiously until someone gives me a reason to distrust, and even in those I do trust, I always am wary that something unexpected could happen. That way when or if the shoe drops, in most cases the relationship can be salvaged. In those cases where the relationship needs to be severed, it can be done without as much trauma as there otherwise might be.
I am always saddened when humanity takes the low road and each heartbreak hurts as much as the last, but at least I can keep my faith in human goodness by not trusting rashly.
Have a good day all!